Can this be it? Are we really not suppose to have kids? This process has shaken me to my core. I feel defeated. This time I know how cruel IVF can be. It’s no distant stranger. I’m not in shock, I’m just worn and hurt. Who would have guessed we would be sitting here.
Read moreFertility Vacation 2.0 // FET (Frozen Embryo Transfer)
I’ve been pretty sleepy since the Frozen Embryo Transfer. It’s been a lot of slow movement and rest. I’m so grateful Vanessa is here. I am so strong and steady because of her.
Read moreFertility Vacation 2.0 // Tomorrow & Maybes
Tomorrow is the big day. Beautiful pregnant women are flooding the streets around me and kids are everywhere we go. It’s often drizzling outside, but the trees are alight with color. I can’t believe this sudden change in me. I feel 180 degrees different.
Read moreFertility Vacation 2.0 // RTT Therapy - Releasing Childhood Fears
In 48 hours we will transfer the embryos and I want to be in the best place possible. Our dreams could come true. Maybe two days from now something beautiful will happen. During RTT therapy last night, I delved into my subconscious beliefs that I had created as a child about how the world isn’t a safe place for babies, and babies somehow hurt their moms during pregnancy.
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