Can this be it? Are we really not suppose to have kids? This process has shaken me to my core. I feel defeated. This time I know how cruel IVF can be. It’s no distant stranger. I’m not in shock, I’m just worn and hurt. Who would have guessed we would be sitting here.
Read moreFertility Vacation 2.0 // FET (Frozen Embryo Transfer)
I’ve been pretty sleepy since the Frozen Embryo Transfer. It’s been a lot of slow movement and rest. I’m so grateful Vanessa is here. I am so strong and steady because of her.
Read moreFertility Vacation 2.0 // Tomorrow & Maybes
Tomorrow is the big day. Beautiful pregnant women are flooding the streets around me and kids are everywhere we go. It’s often drizzling outside, but the trees are alight with color. I can’t believe this sudden change in me. I feel 180 degrees different.
Read moreFertility Vacation 2.0 // My Last Dollar
Once I got out of the Airbnb in Prague and looked around at the familiar painted houses in Vinohrady it hit me. What the fuck am I doing here? A bit of shock, horror and a small fleeting moment where my mind rejected the whole idea.
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